I just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Thank you all for following me and my progress. I get quite a few messages from a wide range of people, people in similar circumstances, people who are struggling with their mental health, or struggling with injuries, and to think that they can take a little bit of motivation or inspiration from my story goes a very long way with me, it makes it all worthwhile.
Needless to say, I haven’t exactly had an enjoyable Christmas over the last few years, but to be actually still here, and home with my family and friends to enjoy it this year just means so much to me. To be able to help my Mum and Dad this year and to help out those around me means so much to me, that I am here to help, and that I am able to help. This Christmas I am absolutely making the most of it, to think that I was at a point where I thought I wouldn’t make the next Christmas, but now I am still here and I definitely do appreciate it that much more.
Niamh and I have been watching lots of Christmas movies having our cosy nights in 🙂
Last winter I wasn’t well enough to run, this winter I managed to get my 17th Parkrun in which I thoroughly enjoyed, especially because I get to catch up with friends 🙂
Now I’ve made my way home to Co.Wexford (with Bear) to spend Christmas with my family and friends 🙂
I even offered to make a dessert for Christmas day to help out Mum and Dad which I was delighted to do this morning, delighted to be able to do, especially seeing as I never ever make desserts.
As for my progress, I’m up to 3 days a week in work now which I am coping well with, and something even more important is that I did get a cold recently while in work and I only had to take 2 sick days which is a huge sign for me. A cold last winter would have absolutely shattered me for 2 or 3 weeks, so to lose just 2 days of work is a huge sign of my body getting stronger compared to last winter which makes me really happy!
Speaking of work, when I joined the company in 2015 I was 7 months in the job and waiting for my probationary period to be signed off when I took ill. I never got to sign the forms, I was out of work for 3 years, 3 long years, but my seat on the team was kept for me which was a hugely positive thing, and well just a few days ago before I left for my Christmas holidays my probation was signed off and I was made permanent. What a great way to start Christmas.
As for my running, considering I was barely able to run at all last winter I am delighted to have kept up some form of consistency over the last few months running about 3 times a week, but making sure to take it while I adjust to being back at work, I have to be more careful with my energy levels but it’s all progress and improvement and I’ll take it, roll on 2019!
I hope to see you for my charity event taking place in July 2019 in aid of the Irish Cancer Society, details and link below.
Let it out
I’m certainly making the most of this Christmas, I’m just so thankful to be here, and to be able to enjoy it with my family and friends, and to be able to do what I can to help out. My mental health has really been a roller coaster lately, when it’s good it’s good, but when I go downhill I really go downhill but I just try to keep going knowing, hoping, that it will get better but that it might just take some time. Cancer absolutely tore my mental and physical health down to the absolute bone and due to that I really find that the little things upset me more, they hurt me more, deeper, but I’m hopeful that with time I will heal and become stronger as the days pass by.
People tell me how well I look now, I get so many people mentioning it to me lately and they are right, and it’s so nice to hear, but the mental health battle is still raging on deep inside, those difficult things that I am dealing with every single day, but not just me, we all have our battles going on, all of us, one way or another.
I find that talking to those around me really helps, just to get it out, to get it off the chest, people have no idea what struggles we may be dealing with inside if we don’t let them out and talk about them, so I guess what I’m trying to say is that if you are having those difficult days and it’s building up inside you, remember that one of the things family and friends are there for is when you need help, go and let it out and get it off the chest and you’ll feel a whole lot better, you may be struggling on the inside but no matter hard you are finding things on the inside, those looking at the outside may never know.
Enjoy your Christmas and the New Year, enjoy being with family and friends, make the most of it, enjoy the small things, enjoy every single moment 🙂
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